A new entry... after a long long time... haiz... ,

During this time... somethings was broken mah heart...a number of tales happened   ... but now ... i'm so tired... n'   i don't cares.

Aniway, theres loads of unpleasant things going on in my life ..cant write it all here cos its involved ppl.... they might come read lol. wel i dun wanna bitch 'bout ppl who r mah close friends cos although watever happens, they r by my side, even we r different but we r friends aint we. watever it is i will try to keep mah mood stable lol
i hate this town more than ever, its quiet, its small, its ugly and so are the ppl. i hate all my coleagues here, hate them a lot, just wanna throw rocks at them haha. Well, F is the one i dont like but i sill have to be with her! i dont like cos shes a liar, she keeps lying to mah face. i dunno who the fuck shes kidding with, i'm a girl too, i knoe her tricks, so if she lies, i knoe it in mah head, she thinks im such a naive gal, but i'm not!!! i'm  sure not! I hate it when she tries to be innocent, what the hell is wrong with her?? i thought we could be a good friend who i cant talk to but it turned out shes not.... i thought i would find another F but i was wrong too. Shes a bitch who thinks shes not lol. do i deserve this life?/? i'm a bad person i knoe but do i hav to pay  that much? its really boring here......  i dont want ppl to knoe my life sucks but it is man, unbelievable!!>> i hate flirty gals,  i never flirt i dunno if its a good thing or bad thing!

What the fuck are the meanings of the word "boyfriend' or 'couple'?? those words make me sick these day, could ppl around me stop talking about this kind of stuff?? or just stop making more couples?? its impossible in fact. ppl breaking up and getting 2gether, round1, round2, i stand still! s1 said cos i dont want to have 1, i dont knoe, i'm not desperate like that,. Stick to wat mom says "no boyfriend? GOOD!!" so wat the point i have to get 1 hehe. i dunno she just wanna comfort me or she really thinks so but sometimes i DO think about it. Well, cute and kind boys are rare......... stupid and uncool jerks, loads!! its hard to have a good man nowaday i have to say, good ones are all gone with flirty gals!! Its life!!!!!!!

sitting here mumbling about my life, thats me.........i havent studied a lot, again, but its getting better...... i have started to knoe what lib is for lol...
to stop, i just wanna wish myself luck for the exams, and about the bf thingy, errrrrrr, just more guys come to mah life pls hhaha dun need to be mah bf, be mah boy-friends, just help me knoe how good guys can be without a bf-gf relationship!!